Being a lazy ass

Today is one of those "fuck work!" days. I rolled over around 6 am and decided although Ive been on vaca for 5 days straight...I was not ready to return to work. Thus leading me to call off..it felt good. Now lets pray I don't get sick for the rest of the year. Ha! HE *see entry below* was supposed to come over my place around 10/11pm last night, somehow this negro ended up at my door around 530 am. :shitfaced: wow..I see why he is an "ex". So I gave him a quickie and faked it just so he could leave and I could go back to sleep. Waste of time..blah!

Whats so wierd with him and I is that we broke up because I had JUST had my daughter and I knew he was cheating, I went through a crazy like depression after my daughter and went a year and 7 months straight with no sex..so he seeked outside help. So we broke up..got back cool and ended up sleeping together while he was in another relationship. I didn't feel bad because it was with the girl he was cheating on me with..yeah, real high school I know. I think Im done with this little romp in the hay with him. Im 22 now, no longer 18. The sex is GREAT, but im tired of it already..its not fulfilling in fact it brings the word lonely up inside my conscious. Thats the only reason Im doing him and this. Lonliness and boredom. I had a date last night with this random guy who works at sprint, I went to pay my bill and he kept my number (stalkerish? maybe) anyway he has been calling me for about a month straight so he called yesterday and he said something to offend me and I just hung up right in his face. I am losing patience with men, with people period. Im quick to scratch you off my list and out my life.

I have/had some good prospects for future husbands. Actually the donor was one but he's too soft for me. I bully him on the regular lol. I had the stock broker with his own real estate business. My one ex just got drafted to the NFL, Mr. Ryne Robinson, then there was the engineer who was my prettyboy but he liked to have 50 women at once. We'll he actually matured and is engaged. Its like I mold men for the next chick...lol. Want a good man? bring the piece of shit he is now to me and in six months...i will have him right! lmao. Im considering being celibate again. Like seriously.

I miss my lil girl:( I always say that while shes at her dads Imma do it up, I really dont. I wander around the house thinking of things to do,clean or I work hella overtime. Speaking of work, my debit for some reason is not working (no im not broke..my bank is ghetto lol) I need to purchase my website. I am a freelance photographer, and I want more business and to have an online portfolio. I need a site name...hmm. Suggestions?

So my brother is moving my mattress that the roof leaked on (deleted dramatic angry post lol) and he said my mattress is a porno mattress..i didnt know whether to laugh or be offended. He and I share a boy-boy friendship...i know all his sexual history as he knows mine which is VERY wierd. We are 13 years apart, me being the youngest..I grew up meeting all his lil skanks and slores probably why I act the way I do.

So Im about to take out a loan...why? I want my own photography studio really bad and I figure I dont need that much..hell my basement has lights,backdrops,props, I own 4 cameras..filters for days..but I want a studio studio. My light in my basement is HORRID and so the shadows are too dramatic so yeah..stupid decision? yea or nay..

btw..I love amy winehouse & lily allen.